Well, hello there, I'm getting into a habbit of not writing... Umm, yeah. YESTERDAY! Was round Fliss' house! We played on the Wii, went walking around Pentney, went to this park, came back, and went on MSN/Facebook, and, yeah. It was a really nice day^^ Came home, and, did nothing:L Umm, woke up today, did nothing... as usual. Then went to this BBQ we were invited to, don't get me wrong, I was very appreciative of being invited and that, but it was so fucking boring... They were all older than me, and all chavy and bleugh, I didn't feel right being there... Mind you, I never feel right being around Chris' family... *sigh* Ahh well. Now, just sitting here in a sulk as always(Y) I fucking hate being in a bad mood, I've been angry/annoyed/sad/lonely ever since my 13th birthday, and I have to say, it's so fucking horrible... I used to be so happy, never had a care in the world... I miss them days, no problems, no worries, no nothing. I only had a couple of friends back then, Aron, Lewis, Ben and Jack. Might of been a small group of friends, but couldn't of asked for any better. Mmmm, ahh well, life goes on, plus, people have shitter problems than me. Mind you, my problems aren't important anyway xD I mean, I only get all of that shit off my chest on here, and I feel like a dick doing so. Most people have someone, or aload of people they can talk to, me? I have a fucking website.. I know there's people I can talk to, but I feel guilty telling them, so I try to avoid spilling the beans as much as possible. Actually, I really want to be reborn, I want to make a new start, see what everyone would think of me then, see if my true friends now would still take me in. There's so much I'd like to do, I want to be dead for a week, to see people's reactions, I want to see what life's like if I didn't exist, I want no fear, no emotion, common sense, talent, looks, wit, I want so much, but I'm stuck with me, and quite frankly, I hate it. So. So. So. Much.
*sigh* Well, that's my bitching session over and done with, I'll write tomorrow, I'll probably be in a shit mood there n'all (oh me, always thinking happy thoughts...)
You are perfect just the way you are. You dont neeed any of that, you have common sense, you have talent, looks, wit, everything. How many times do I have to tell you? Ill write a whole book about you if you dont believe me. Thanks for sending me this,I cant text you or communicate you in any way to tell you to stop being so silly, Ive been racing around the house looking for my phone panicking like a madwoman and I cant bloody find it. I cant do anything. Im useless. I really hope youre alright, I care about you a lot, more than you know. Now im not going to go to sleep cheers:/ xx
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